May 9th, 2023
Dear diary,
Hey there! It's been so long! I've missed writing to you. I'm 21 now! I can drink! Haha😉 just kidding. Coming to 21, It's not just about legally drinking you know? I feel like drinking is just a waste of time and energy. You want to enjoy? there are millions of other ways to do so...alone or with friends.
Anyway, moment of 21 is like a moment of realization. Like a slap across the face. Not like "Oh I'm finally free", more like "oh, I should be more responsible now". 21 is realizing that you in the end are responsible for everything that happens in your life.
For some of us life is probably just money 'cuz life is full of time, and time is money. For some others, life is full of time, and life is what you do with that time.
I guess these days we just forget to live. We forget to hang on to the happiness that memories hold for us. All we want to do is earn, earn, and earn. We often need to realize that we earn, and work to earn, so that we can live life. But if we start thinking that living life is a waste of time and that we'd rather work even in the time we can enjoy...then why do we need this life? What will we do with all that money we earn? Should we shit in gold or something? If we don't want to live in the moment but rather just work to earn all the time, what are we even getting?
Ok, let's say I am leaving. Let it be the end of college, or the end of a job, or maybe the end of the world or the end of my life. What, in the end, will I be taking with me other than the sweet memories among the hurdles and hardships of life? There sure are good memories hidden like gems in mud. If we decide to only give light to our depressive times...then our whole life is a dark place to visit. If you're only ever going to hang on to what you didn't get...what will you get by that? Only a mind full of blues. Can't you hold onto all the good memories you had all the while though? Haven't you still had your moments? Don't you think everything happens for a reason here?
We people love being sad....no matter how many good things happen we can't seem to leave that one thing which spoils our mood. We hold onto it so tight that you lose all the happiness you have in your hands.
We see what we want to see. That's what makes a huge difference in perspective, and our efforts work accordingly don't you think so? We shouldn't be spending so much time hating stuff and people. That'll only spoil life and the moments we are supposed to live for. What will we get treasuring 'things' more than our relations and passions?
They say when you're happy anything seems possible. You see? That's what hope and happiness does to you. It makes things possible and when you make something possible, you feel happy! It's a cycle, right? Except, you have to hold on, becuz making things possible isn't always easy, but isn't impossible either. You just have to keep it up. Keep up your spirits and believe in yourself.
You know that feeling? You want to do this and that, but you can only do it at a particular time and now that time has passed, and you have no chance, and you realize you only have one life, and you can't ever get it back and take back time no matter what?
That's exactly why.... Stop putting off things for later. Let it be work or enjoyment. Live in the moment for the moment. Not for the past or the future.
21 taught me that whatever you want to do, just go for it. Take chances, take risks if it's worth it, but make sure you keep trying till the end, and make sure you always believe in yourself and never lose hope. There's nothing you can't do. Nothing you can't reach.
Alright bud! That's been a long chat with you! I'll write to you again soon. Till then adios amigo!
