Dear diary, will this ever change?

June 27th

Dear diary,

  I can't seem to get over the fact that almost everyone takes their parents for granted after they grow up into a independent man or a woman.. do parents really have to be so helpless and supportless after everything they've done for their children? 

  No matter how may movies we watch about a grandson getting together the sons and daughters to their grandparents, to remind them of their love in childhood, it seems like people will just keep being emotional, but do the same mistake.. leaving their parents, with many different reasons... don't these people realize that a family and their love is the only thing left with a person till the end of time? so what do they get by leaving it over some fights? 

  You know what I feel?  A family is supposed to be a lovely bond with the strongest knot, that can never be undone...and that knot stays strong as long as we contribute to keeping it up...no matter what problems we may face, or what tries to turn us against each other, or what comes in between, it WILL stay tight if we are strong enough and hold it TOGETHER. Everything will work out if we do it together... why let things come between us and loosen the grip on our strength? There may have been times we hurt each other, but how do we test the strength of the rope without some pressure, cuts, hits, etc. What hurts the most is that some people go too far, that we don't even want to get them back anymore...it's like breaking a whole generation of connection, if you know what I mean...well I'll just hope for the best, and hope for the world to become a better place soon.

bye for now!

Dear diary, am I feeling pressured?

June 20th

Dear diary,

  I've been doing exactly what I thought I shouldn't do, I've been being effected by the people around me...I wonder if there are more like me who feel pressured not exactly to reach a standard in studies, but to reach the standards of being a good friend, or a responsible sibling...

 What I've been doing is actually a common thing, comparing my loved ones with myself...seeing that  they are all doing soo much in their freetime, and not wasting it, and indeed being so very good at what they are doing, while I'm just sitting here watching them and whining about how I'm not able to be as good as them..and that reminds me again that, I should be myself, but then, what if this 'myself ' is not trying to be worthy of anything? What comes then? Well then I just got to apply what I told you before, I should try new things, and keep trying to be good at something, and of course, I have to be satisfied with whatever I do, and that doesn't mean I should stop trying, there's always room for the better! do keep reminding me that diary will you? 

  By the way, I figured I should have a lot of 'me time' which means doing things I like at least once a day. Well, what do you know? I draw whatever I feel, and guess what sometimes it surprises me how happy I get when I'm drawing my feelings... especially with music running through my mind! I wish everyone would find some time everyday to do something they like, release themselves you know? set themselves free from the daily rush. But the problem is people are like, always busy, and if we say find some time all they have to say is we have no time... that is truly when I wish I could be busy too.. so dear, I won't stop until I find something to do with myself. I'll try to get myself busy from now. Don't get me wrong here, I really want to do something useful with the time I have as I've said before. I guess that's it for now! I'll be back next time with a new story! 

Dear diary, can I hope?

June 19th

Dear diary,

  Hope, I guess it is what we all need to keep us going in this world... I think I've said "let's all hope for the better" too many times to even count, I think...my whole life I've been repeating it, like an assurance for myself that everything will be alright. But I guess, always just hoping doesn't do any good, because it would be like wishing corona wouldn't come till us and affect us while we ourselves go out and indirectly ignore the chances of being affected. It's like wanting to get good marks in an exam without writing anything in the exam. I should hope for something to happen only if I do whatever it takes to make that 'something' happen. Hard work always pays off, forget perfection, you just need to do your best. 

  Of course, I can't say "JUST try your best" because it is never that easy, but again what in life comes easy? If something does, then it is not worthy. So please remind me to never say never! lol😶 I should just keep replaying Justin Bieber's song in my mind, it really is meaningful. Anyway, coming back, so here's the thing, I've been hoping that I can become useful somehow in this lock down period, and get my lazy  a** to start working with something, but I've simply got so many things I want to do, like I want to watch everything of BTS, and watch so many k-dramas, and yet still want to have time to sleep properly, lol, and on top of that still want to do something useful...does it even make sense? It feels like nothing, nada, no good change in me. Well...what do you know, all I've been doing is staring at my phone all the day, and maybe even night😜 so I've been wondering, and wondering, and have I mentioned? wondering, what should I do, cuz literally my hope has gone to waste becuz of me😕so, I figured that for now, I can keep drawing all my thoughts through drawings I see as interesting, and sometimes even painting. Honestly, I've heard from many people that they are learning cooking, but trust me I hate it...but I'll have to try that too, at least it is useful for the house😂

  So, I should say I will not hope for anything from now unless I do something to satisfy the standard of my hope😁

  So, my dear diary, I hope to see another day with you, goodbye for today!

 

Dear Diary...

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