Dear diary, can I hope?

June 19th

Dear diary,

  Hope, I guess it is what we all need to keep us going in this world... I think I've said "let's all hope for the better" too many times to even count, I think...my whole life I've been repeating it, like an assurance for myself that everything will be alright. But I guess, always just hoping doesn't do any good, because it would be like wishing corona wouldn't come till us and affect us while we ourselves go out and indirectly ignore the chances of being affected. It's like wanting to get good marks in an exam without writing anything in the exam. I should hope for something to happen only if I do whatever it takes to make that 'something' happen. Hard work always pays off, forget perfection, you just need to do your best. 

  Of course, I can't say "JUST try your best" because it is never that easy, but again what in life comes easy? If something does, then it is not worthy. So please remind me to never say never! lol😶 I should just keep replaying Justin Bieber's song in my mind, it really is meaningful. Anyway, coming back, so here's the thing, I've been hoping that I can become useful somehow in this lock down period, and get my lazy  a** to start working with something, but I've simply got so many things I want to do, like I want to watch everything of BTS, and watch so many k-dramas, and yet still want to have time to sleep properly, lol, and on top of that still want to do something useful...does it even make sense? It feels like nothing, nada, no good change in me. Well...what do you know, all I've been doing is staring at my phone all the day, and maybe even night😜 so I've been wondering, and wondering, and have I mentioned? wondering, what should I do, cuz literally my hope has gone to waste becuz of me😕so, I figured that for now, I can keep drawing all my thoughts through drawings I see as interesting, and sometimes even painting. Honestly, I've heard from many people that they are learning cooking, but trust me I hate it...but I'll have to try that too, at least it is useful for the house😂

  So, I should say I will not hope for anything from now unless I do something to satisfy the standard of my hope😁

  So, my dear diary, I hope to see another day with you, goodbye for today!