Dear diary,
I've been doing exactly what I thought I shouldn't do, I've been being effected by the people around me...I wonder if there are more like me who feel pressured not exactly to reach a standard in studies, but to reach the standards of being a good friend, or a responsible sibling...
What I've been doing is actually a common thing, comparing my loved ones with myself...seeing that they are all doing soo much in their freetime, and not wasting it, and indeed being so very good at what they are doing, while I'm just sitting here watching them and whining about how I'm not able to be as good as them..and that reminds me again that, I should be myself, but then, what if this 'myself ' is not trying to be worthy of anything? What comes then? Well then I just got to apply what I told you before, I should try new things, and keep trying to be good at something, and of course, I have to be satisfied with whatever I do, and that doesn't mean I should stop trying, there's always room for the better! do keep reminding me that diary will you?
By the way, I figured I should have a lot of 'me time' which means doing things I like at least once a day. Well, what do you know? I draw whatever I feel, and guess what sometimes it surprises me how happy I get when I'm drawing my feelings... especially with music running through my mind! I wish everyone would find some time everyday to do something they like, release themselves you know? set themselves free from the daily rush. But the problem is people are like, always busy, and if we say find some time all they have to say is we have no time... that is truly when I wish I could be busy too.. so dear, I won't stop until I find something to do with myself. I'll try to get myself busy from now. Don't get me wrong here, I really want to do something useful with the time I have as I've said before. I guess that's it for now! I'll be back next time with a new story!
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